self-absorption

my academic life has alienated me from my friends who don't understand it and its demands and pressures. it really has not been my choice to stay in night after night, toiling away. i graduated two weeks ago from my associates program and am now studying to take a big test at the end of the month that will hopefully make me more marketable to employers. that means i have no life until then. i had a weeks' respite in between the workload, and i was pretty bummed that only one friend seemed to want to go out and do shit with me. i was also bummed that someone i consider one of my closest friends has not said one word yet on my finishing school, the most grueling 1.5 years of my life. i know everyone has their own life and things going on, and i have not been as involved in my friends' lives as i would like, but this really stings. it just makes me reevaluate people and their importance to me and vice versa. i don't want my bf to be my sole support system as i've been there and was miserably isolated after the relationship ended - not to mention bf doesn't remember things like when projects are due or when my first day of work is - but it seems like i'm being pushed in that direction.

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